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Drama, a Team Sport [Jun. 1st, 2009|03:00 am]
Brian Tuft
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[Current Location |In Bed...]
[music |"Scared" Duffy]

Jen's recent friend Lauren and I bumped heads upon meeting, she was really good at dishing out her critical opinion, but was less than receptive when you went to offer some in return. Once she had her full of what I had to say she told Jennifer she wasn't willing to hang out with me anymore. With that, my social calender lost a few important dates with Jen. Recently, if I promised to keep my mouth shut and played nice I was allowed to hang out again... There was no such promise on Lauren's part, just when I was beginning to wonder why I was the only person with a problem with this girl, she pushed the wrong buttons on Nicole (a friend of Jen and I) and suddenly I was not alone in my dislike of Lauren. The only problem is Lauren has recently gotten very close with Jamie (a former best friend of mine) and with Jamie and I not speaking, there is nothing I can do... So now this girl I really dislike is getting cozy with a friend I'm not sure where I stand with.

After the drama at Christina's graduation, her goodbye felt like nothing. We all went out for a few drinks to send her off with a buzz. It was strange to think that the next time I see her in New York would be at the end of a summer that's not even properly begun. Althought I did show up late as I attended the get together at my family's house with my late-mother's extended family. With the exception of a few awkward moments and that I left with my clothes reeking of smoke, it went okay. We completely ignored the many elephants in the room that night, (my mother's death, our falling out, the plans for my mother's remains, etc.) While I understand that it might be good to have not dived into those topics right off the bat, I think there is an awkward conversation and possible fight yet to be had. Whether they want it or not...

We FINALLY got around to properly celebrating my sister's 17th Birthday properly. On Saturday we had a lot of her friends over for some BBQ and cake. Things went really well, and we had a really, really full house. But, although there were many faces present, some of the most familiar faces were noticeably absent. When I looked around the table and saw that some of the people my sister loves the most weren't there I couldn't tell who was more upset, her or me...

Now, I have Jennifer's birthday coming up which means I'll not only have to face that whole Lauren thing, but a face to face with Jamie is imminent. School still isn't over quite yet and I'm beginning to get restless. Plus with Dana's sister in the hospital recovering from an accident and Dana dedicating herself 110% to the cause there is a strain on our friendship, one I hope is resolved before anything comes of it...
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A Guess Who I Met/Look At This Fabulous Bitch Post [May. 28th, 2009|07:29 pm]
Brian Tuft

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Source: Just Jared and myself...
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Last Time on The Village... [May. 26th, 2009|01:56 pm]
Brian Tuft
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[Current Location |Home]
[mood |indescribable]
[music |"I Fell In Love With the Pizza Girl" Jonas]

Nicole's party came and went, much like Jamie and myself. I came after she went. It was good to avoid the awkwardness and the opportunity for drama. But the mood was still a little tense since everyone else was aware of what they had just avoided. It was a celebratory time and I had a bunch of fun, just hanging out. But, now I'm left with this horrible feeling wondering when is it going to happen, but it will eventually happen. We will run into each other, and with a bunch of friend's birthdays coming up... Maybe it would've been better to just get it over with.

But, just as I was freaking out about the potential run in with a fallen out friend, my sister found a way to make that look like nothing. After my mother passed away a few years ago, my mother's family behaved pretty terribly and we stopped communicating. It was something that I was sad about it in some aspects, but I felt that I was right, and they were wrong. And, knowing them I knew there was no way they would ever admit that... So I accepted that it was over, and there was nothing to be done about it. After my sister got a birthday card from my Grandma saying that she was upset the family couldn't celebrate with my sister. Now, after my sister called my grandmother up, they want us to get together to celebrate my sister's birthday. If I don't go I would look like I was being a child, but going might no be good for me either.

Speaking of Brittany's birthday. We did a little birthday Barbeque the day before her actual birthday. But, the day of her actual birthday was Christina's (my friend from Yale) Graduation which I had promised to go to for over a year. I was intending to be back from New Haven around 4ish, but that was if everything ran smoothly. Of course it didn't happen like that. What really happened was a beautiful day in New Haven watching my good friend accomplish something she was working towards for four years. But, after that was witness a huge fight between my friend and her mother and me getting left in New Haven with no way out for like two hours. I of course missed Brittany's birthday dinner and feel terrible.

Now, I have to find out a way to make it up to Brittany. All while trying to figure out what to do about my fallen out friend and family. I'm not sure what I am going to do, I mean at this point I'm not even sure if I'm going to do anything. But, with Christina leaving this week and school winding down but not until I finish my Final Paper I have a lot to keep me distracted... for now.
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... Previously on the Village [May. 22nd, 2009|12:41 am]
Brian Tuft
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[music |"Time to Pretend" MGMT]

My sister and I were talking the other night, and between the two of us, we have had more drama that any of the girls on the Hills and the City put together, so we are soliciting a reality show called The Village. Here's a taste of what has been going on in my life.

Two weeks ago, Brittany's (my sister) best friend AJ's mother passed away after a lengthy battle with cancer. It was so devastating, his mother was a functional and productive matriarch of their family who went to work everyday up until about two weeks before her passing. Just as the sadness was about to subside, Sara's (my friend) father passed away. His death was under different circumstances, but was just as sad.

Aside from multiple trips to funeral homes, the drama with Nicole (my friend) had reached an all time high. I had just about had enough of her not listening to my concerns about being left out and often being treated like a secondary friend. Fortunately we worked through it, but so far not enough time has passed to see if we've made any progress. Deeper into that circle, there have been thoughts that a friend of Nicole's may marry her sort of long term boyfriend, a boyfriend that no one in her life seems to like. Which can only drive them further apart.

Christina finally wrapped up her four years at Yale, and came home to spend some time here before heading out west for her summer job. While in town, we had so much fun and even went to a Dance party at Yale on a whim and a total blast. I know it sounds dramatic, but I can't figure if spending time with her was a good idea or a bad idea. Sure, we had fun, but now that she'll be gone again soon it only makes it harder to say good bye again.

School seems to be ending for everyone, myself included. While I'm not graduating this year, I am finishing up classes, and with that comes a final project. A project that is stressing me out since it requires working in a group, and a dysfunctional one at that. Somehow, some of the project turned out well... But, we'll see if the whole things goes smoothly.

Add to the stress of finals week, the return of Jamie (a former friend) just finished with her college years upstate and things are heating up just like the summer temperatures. With a good friend moving far away, and an enemy moving back around the corner I'll get to test the theory of keeping one's friends close, and their enemies closer.

It looks like I won't have to wait long to test that thinking, Nicole is throwing a party this weekend to kick off summer and it will set the stage for me to see Jamie for the first time in almost a year... Only time will tell how the party will kick off the summer. But, something tells me, now matter what happens summer will start with a bang.
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When it comes to Gossip Girl is it a case of California here we come? An open letter to Gossip Girl. [May. 21st, 2009|09:10 am]
Brian Tuft
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[Current Location |In my Head]
[music |Forensic Files]

Hey Upper East Siders,

Gossip Girl viewer here, I would love to say that I have a scoop for you, but I feel what I'm about to say is something we all know already. Gossip Girl, we love you. The clothes! The bitchiness! The fantasy that this is our life! But, alas Gossip Girl I've grown tired of you, sort of how Serena got tired of you. We've had some good times this season, there was that summer in the Hamptons! And, the weekend trip to Yale! Remember Fashion Week!

Well if you don't recall those wonderful moments, it may be because it was so long ago, and so much else has gone on that you've just let it slip out of your mind. But, I would never forget about our good times GG, I lived for them! But now? The kids involved in a Madoff scheme, Jenny dropping out of school and let's not even mention Jack Bass the Jackass have made me say OMFG WTF is her problem? Gossip Girl your story lines were so much fun because they were full of glamour and fantasy, what if this could be our high school life, what if while I was riding mass transit to school I was wearing Valentino instead of my uniform. But, never in my four years did I hope to take down an fuax heiress or live in some Brooklyn slum and have some crazy bitch burn all of my earthly possessions in a trash can fire. When you stopped showing my fantasy life, the honeymoon ended.

Somewhere between Jenny's fashion show and her Sweet Sixteen you dropped the ball, maybe it was because of how eager we were for what you had to offer, we wanted as much Gossip Girl as possible. And, you rightfully tried your hardest and gave us 25 episodes. And, by my count if you skip from where things started going down hill to where they picked up you would have 15 - 18 episodes putting you on par with the amount you gave us last season. But, I still love you, so let's talk about your missteps so you can fix them.

Let's start with your cast, I love the main six... Sometimes I like Vanessa. The rest of the cast is pretty likable too, but you never play them consistently and you expect not to notice. You so frequently mention small details that you know we will notice, so why do you think we're so dumb that we won't notice that Headmistress Queller was at onetime played by one lady and now played by a different lady. You couldn't make her the assistant Headmistress or the new Headmistress? You had to slide in a new actress into the same role, this isn't Becky on Roseanne. We could have had a new character. Also, we all hated Aaron Rose, he was like Dan Humphrey:the Sequel. He was more boring, more indie hipster, so we hated him. Especially for our it-girl Serena! But, why wouldn't he be at Passover? I mean it would have been great to see him there, making things even worse for Serena and Dan. The idea that we never saw him once, even though he is Blair's brother is ridiculous!

Finally, and most importantly what is going on with the Girls who eat lunch on the Steps? At first there were two, Kati & Iz. We moved one to the Middle East, and added four more. We dropped one of them immediately or four episodes but who is counting? When we arrived at Constance for our first day we saw a new girl. Her brother was a college guy and she came from money. She was played so inconsistently I almost forgot about her... Last time we heard from her, she wore leggings as pants as Blair almost cut her tongue out. But no one Mean Girl was played more sporadically than Hazel. For God sakes she was at Prom but not Graduation. I mean clearly she picked the more important event socially, but come on? Now some of these casting errors may not be your fault. Headmistress Queller may have died, Hazel could be filming a movie. But, not all of them can be accidents... and even if you cannot control them, you could offer an explanation.

While we're on the cast... I said I loved the main six and I meant that. But, I do have one bone to pick. What is going on with Chuck? Okay, I loved him last season when he was a womanizer who dabbled in recreational drug use. However, this Chuck 2.0 we have who has a P.I. on retainer, shops for hookers on some sort of an international database and is constant whisper talking? He is not okay. He is sometimes in the same category as Vanessa.I mean Ed Westwick we love you, and when you started talking in that whisper voice in the bedroom it made us quiver. But, now when you use that whisper voice at a party or on the phone? It makes us shutter in disgust. I know you're the richest teen in Manhattan, but you would not be flying in hookers from around the world. There were scenes this season that if sewed together it would look like if you took the Disney World attraction It's a Small World and moved it to a bordello. He's a rich, good looking kid who is popular in high school. He would not be paying for sex. Ever.

Moving on, let's focus now on what almost made us change the channel to see what most people are watching on Monday nights. These ridiculous plot lines. I can buy kids having a party in a bar, going to clubs, never being in class, etc. Because, I want to believe that. No matter how hard I try though, I just cannot wrap my mind around some of the things you tried to tell me this season. Jenny moving out of the loft and moving to some crack den in a bad area of Brooklyn? Someone that young who only knew gentrified Williamsburg would not be able to cut it. Plus hello? Rufus so would have called the cops when she moved out and had her dragged back to their home. There was an entire three episode arc where Dan was sleeping with a teacher, they were in a play, Blair lost Yale. All of it was unrealistic. And worse? All of it was completely so not interesting. I did not care about one of those story lines. And, finally that whole thing with Poppy stealing money and stuff? What high school kids would be involved in that? Would they even care? It was so dumb. I understand that you were trying to move away from high school, since the end of the season marked the end of that time in our cast's lives. But, instead of trying to move away from high school and failing. Why wouldn't you just embrace high school for as long as you had it. Some of the best scenes from the show's run take place on the school campus. It allowed all of our characters to be together organically. Plus, some of Leighton Meester's best scenes ever are when she is at school with her minions.

I'm not attacking you Gossip Girl, consider this me calling you on making out with a 4 when you deserve a 9. I want you to know what you did was bad, maybe embarrass you a little bit in hopes of helping you learn from your mistakes. Find some background cast members without commitment issues, like the wonderful Amanda Setton or Matthew Settle. Reevaluate where Chuck is headed and where he is. Maybe reunite him with his scarf and basis in reality. And finally, keep it normal. Show us college age kids, dealing with college aged drama. It's not hard to take something normal and glam it up or make it bigger. Just nip the unrealistic stuff in the bud, sorry if that means Dan can't run for mayor or Blair can't enter menopause next season or whatever dumb idea you had about the kids pretending to be adults. Follow these suggestions and rediscover your niche that we loved so much last season and earlier this season and you'll be back on track to be Beverly Hills 90210 and not The OC.


Brian Tuft
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(no subject) [May. 20th, 2009|04:52 am]
Brian Tuft
[Current Location |Snug like a big in a rug in a bed.]
[mood |bitchybitchy]
[music |Special Victims Unit]

So here's a survey:

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
My face. I always stick it really close to the shower head to wake myself up.

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
It's a Navy Blue one from Juicy Couture Men that I bought for like $15 at Century 21.

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
I love making out with Sara!

4. Do you plan outfits?
Yes. I always kind of know what I'm looking for.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Ready to go to bed.

6. What’s the closest thing to you that's red?
A Maroon5 CD.

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I was in a middle school mass, and I had just received Communion. I was sitting back in my pew, reflecting and praying and shit. I looked up, and my principal Sister Bridget was standing at the lectern and was suddenly playing Family Feud. This giant game board ascended from above the tabernacle where they store the blessed bread and wine and I couldn't read the board, so I asked her to repeat the question. You know like they do on the show and she flipped out. She yelled at me and sent me to the office and then I fucking went ape shit and yelled at her. I was escorted from the church and I fled out, since I live down the street.

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
I did indeed, this girl who is obsessed with Wicked the Musical.

9. What are you craving right now?
More Gossip Girl.

10. Do you floss?
Twice a week.

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Corned Beef.

12. Are you emotional?
No. I like to think of emotions as leftovers, you put them in a little tubberware and digest them later if you're in the mood.

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
I never wanted to.

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
I can bite into it. I'm fucking badass.

15. Do you like your hair?
Not at the length it is at.

16. Do you like yourself?
No darling, I love myself.

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
I would be more than welcome to the idea. I have already sat across the table from someone and hated them the whole time so it wouldn't be a new thing.

18. What are you listening to right now?
Special Victims Unit.

19. Are your parents strict?
My mom was, but my dad is a pussycat.

20. Would you go sky diving?

21. Do you like cottage cheese?

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
This is the dumbest question ever, I've met so many.

23. Do you rent movies often?
I have Netflix.

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
Not really.

25. How many countries have you visited?
None other than America.

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
I was good at those.

27. Ever been on a train?
All the time.

28. Brown or white eggs?

29.Do you have a cell-phone?
Who doesn't?

30. Do you use chap stick?
Lip Medex.

31. Do you own a gun?
I'm a Republican, of course I own a gun.

32. Can you use chop sticks?

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
I'm hanging out with Sara.

34. Are you too forgiving?
I can hold a grudge.

35. Ever been in love?
Only with myself.

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
Fucking bitches, getting money.

37. Ever have cream puffs?

38. Last time you cried?
My mother's funeral.

39. What was the last question you asked?
Why are all my live journal friends fat?

40. Favorite time of the year?

41. Do you have any tattoos?

42. Are you sarcastic?

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
I was against that movie, hated Ashton at that moment.

44. Ever walked into a wall?

45. Favorite color?
French Blue.

46. Have you ever slapped someone?

47. Is your hair curly?
Eh. Wavy?

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Chester French. (Weird the person I copied it from had that too)

49. Do looks matter?
In different forms.

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Forgive, yes. Forget, no.

51. Is your phone bill sky high?

52. Do you like your life right now?
Yes. I love my life.

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
I do not.

54. Can you handle the truth?
The question is... can you handle mine?

55. Do you have good vision?
When I am wearing my glasses.

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
Each day I could add 3 more people to my list.

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
All the fucking time.

58. The last person you held hands with?
Um, Christina.

59. What are you wearing?
Boxers and a t-shirt..

60.What is your favorite animal?

61. Where was your default picture taken at?
On the Steps of the Met.

62. Can you hula hoop?

63. Do you have a job?

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
A bag of BBQ chips.

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes. Jamie once locked my door, so I crawled through a second story window. So dangerous, my topsider got stuck in the window frame and I almost fell out the window, it was like a movie.
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That's the way the cookie bakes [Jan. 4th, 2009|08:10 am]
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[Current Location |By the Christmas Tree]
[music |Radio Free Roscoe (God I love this show)]

So last night, I got home from the super market I decided to bake some cookies. I had bought this great book of only cookie recipes and felt now would be the best time to start baking some of them. I decided to make Grammy's Chocolate Cookies. A simple recipe that didn't take too much time or effort but they came out good.

I was excited to use some of the baking equipment I have collected, but rarely get to use. Like my stand mixer.


This is me getting ready to bake. I made a couple of dozens. Then I went to bed.

Here is the finished product.


My bed is even more comfortable than ever. I recently changed my sheets to these new flannel ones, and they are so warm and toasty. So I went to bed nice and early to utilize my new bedding purchase. Which led to waking up early this morning. It helped get a jump start on re-organizing some cabinets, which I think will help keeps things clean in the long run. So far this has been a very productive and yummy new year.

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I Found Another at Williams Sonoma, This May Start a Collection [Dec. 24th, 2008|03:33 am]
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This little piggy stayed home and protected my counter tops.


I asked for this for Christmas, and my dad told my sister it was stupid.
So I bought it myself. Suck it Scrooge.
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Brian Tuft Year 1 [Dec. 22nd, 2008|04:19 am]
Brian Tuft
[Current Location |My bedroom]
[music |"Disco" Metro Station]

So, the other night I was on my way to the Falloutboy show at the Nokia theater here in New York, and while we were driving in traffic I was putting pictures in my photo album to pass the time. And, about half way through my order I ran out of space. So I flipped to the beginning of the book to see when it started, because as some of you know I am a freak about organization so I label all of my photo albums by dates. This particular book started in December of 2007. The book itself was a Christmas gift I had received a few hours before finding out my mother had passed away. The book starts in a really happy state, with pictures of me and my friends at Macy*s meeting Santa and basically prepping for Christmas. The pictures kind of take a break and resume at the end of January when I went to see Cobra and attended my friend Sara's birthday which were my first couple of events after the news. There are some random photos from the Winter and Spring of me in the city just kind of hanging out with friends.

In the spring, you see me at the Zoo, with Martha Stewart, etc. But, no huge event.

The next big event is my 21st Birthday with all of my friends. Which was such a good time, well were both good times since I celebrated twice. My birthday is like the beginning of the birthday season, because after that are pictures of Nicole and Jennifer's birthdays. There are also an unhealthy amount of Gossip Girl pictures. And, after that the pictures kind of end until August. Where you see my pictures of Michael Phelps, hanging outside Roseland with Erin and Mary Ann and Tina and them, and then drinks at the Palace with Nicole and Jennifer. Included here is the beginning of the Fall with like Molly Shannon and fashion week and of course my Halloween party. Which was my first event I threw since Christmas time. Finally the books closes with Washington DC. Which is appropriate because Washington DC is the furthest location away from Manhattan that the book shows me in. But, not only am I far away from New York, I'm furthest away from the beginning of the book.

The last year has dealt a lot of unexpected and at times unwanted cards my way. Obviously my mother's passing, my sister being diagnosed with a strain of lupus and my family's stop of communication with my immediate family. So when people ask me how this year has been they expect the overall feel to be a negative or sad year. While 2008 has had more than my usual amount of sadness in it, it has mostly been a year of change, progress and strength. My whole family has adapted, we have all moved forward in our ways and no matter how tempting the option has been none of us have given up. Looking back on my year, it has been an extraordinary year filled with many good times, accomplishments and opportunity. This was a year that I celebrated my birthday with ALL of my great friends, came face to face with a hero of mine Martha Stewart and sat literally 15 feet away from Britney Spears when she played New York for the first time in four years.

So, when the question comes up, and people ask how was 2008 or how are you kids doing this time of year I will tell them that this year has been difficult, and shitty and absolutely amazing. Because, with all of the unfortunate stuff in it, the good things sparkle even more and meant even more. I thank all of you who were there for me not only throughout this year, but before it even started. I hope you will all be here with me for years to come.


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Just Like a Circus... [Dec. 4th, 2008|03:05 am]
Brian Tuft
[Current Location |On the Chaise Lounge]
[mood |chipperchipper]
[music |The Dark Knight Bootleg DVD]

So a few weeks ago, I saw a commercial on ONTD! for Britney Spears' appearance on Good Morning America. I was immediately excited that Britney would be playing NY for a Free Show. But, as it got closer I found out that it wouldn't be held on the streets by GMA or in Bryant Park like they usually would. Instead it would be held at the Big Apple Circus and you needed tickets to get in. So M and I decided to wait outside the Circus to see if we could get in. But, before we needed to go stand outside the tents, my friend Tina came through in a big way.

She magically, miraculously got tickets for the three of us to go to the Big Apple Circus on the second to see Britney Spears perform and celebrate her 27th Birthday. I was so excited, we piled in at around 6:30 and had good seats we were on the left hand side of the stage, about 12 or 14 rows back. It seems like hours and hours before Brit came out to perform the first song. But, when she did it was worth it. She climbed on top of a cage, that was filled with dancers to perform Circus. A lot of people have said her dancing is not as good as it was, but from where I sat she looked great. It was great to see her, up so close and while she was performing the song for the first time. A while later, she came back out to perform Womanizer. This was the one I loved. I love the Circus themed remix of the song, the dancing, the everything. All in all, she did really well. She seemed crazy nervous though, she needs to rebuild her confidence and she should be fine. By the middle of her tour she should be back to normal.

Other than the performances, I saw her family, both of her sons and Larry Rudolph. It was a great morning and I cannot wait for the tour.
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